Iv never really believed the theory that media has much of an influence on how people, and women in particular, view themselves in terms of looks and weight. Iv always believed that the people who became obsessed with how they look and what weight they are are just too gulliable and/or easily lead, but whether theres more of it around now or im becoming rapidly more insecure of myself iv started to notice how the media is using more and more anti-ugly - anti-fat stereotypes! Iv just seen an advert in fact that showed, to be frank, an incredibly skinny woman who kept pulling her top down over her stomach :S and all through the ad the focus was on this woman who obviously hated the way her stomach looked. It wasnt until the end of the ad that your told its promoting this oil that supposedly fades the appearance of scars and stretch marks. I was listenin 2 music while it was on so i dont no which it was tryna say this woman had but either way by then its to late! The damage has been done! Even i, someone who isnt too worried about how i look, felt quite...inadequate and fat by the time it had finished! I dread to think what would happen if a younger girl (or in fact anybody who is concerned, seriously or otherwise, that they dont have what they percieve to be the ideal figure) would think after seeing this! Now i dont wanna sound like a whiny person that has a shit load of hangups coz they arent size 10 but its getting to be quite worrying in my opinion. Iv started realising that in adverts today, which are one of the most common forms of media, there is hardly anybody over size 10. Normally this wouldnt bother me to much at all but its just getting ridiculous now! I no i sound like im babbling on about nothing, i mean what are a few adverts with skinny people in? The advertisers just want a 'good image' for their campaign, whats wrong with that right? But it doesnt stop at the media anymore. Its all over our shops! I shop at asda which sells clothes and the other day i was horrified to see clothes in the ADULT section that went as low as size 6! I no some people are naturaly slim, my mums one of them. She can eat and eat and not gain a pound, shes tiny! But a size 8 in asda is to small for her....who are these people that can get into size 6 and why are they that thin? :S I no people could argue that you can go the other way and be to fat, i guess you'd be right, theres a limit that way to. But why is it that in quite a few shops now you can buy size 6 but they dont go higher than size 12 or at a push 14? I really worry for the state of young english people who are being brought up in a culture of size 10's that are seen as bordering on being overweight and the belief that hip bones jutting out so far that theres a gap between your stomach and your jeans is not only okay but attractive. Who the hell has been feeding them this bollocks? (no irony intended) I no its not only the media and shops but they have hell of a lot to answer for. Them and jamie oliver. Though in his defense he strives for healthy eating not body image. But its still not good for peoples self esteem. Being told over and over, either directly, indirectly and/or subliminaly that they are to fat and therefore no use to society. 

It really does look like im ranting about nothing but i very rarely get this worked up over something. Im usually quite apathetic about everything. One of the reasons im so angry is today i was on the bus home from college when i overheard 3 girls talkin at the back of the bus.....well i say overheard but they were talkin at such a volume as to make ones ears bleed. They were sat there slagging off this girl they used to know who was size 16. Apparantly, or so i gather from what i made out of all the bollocks spewing from their mouths, she used to be a size 24 and had got down to 16. As i sat there thinkin 'well good for her! Thats a bloody good effort in my opinion' one of them said 'HA NOT ENOUGH! SHES STILL A FAT BITCH'......to say i felt utterly repulsed is an understatment. This is the society we live in today, where skinny people (not all obviously but the ones like on the bus. The disgusting chavs of england)  think they are superior and fatter or slightly overweight people...hell even people as small as size 12, are looked down on wiv repulsion and disgust as lazy slobs that cant control themselves when walkin past mcdonalds (i for one cant stand mcdonalds, id rather eat my own arm and itd propably be better for me). It a sad, sad world that we live in these days when most young people, even as young as 11 are dieting and developing eating disorders or slapping makeup on when they havent even left primary school yet. And its not just young people either, my friend whos 18 and size 10 (maybe 12 but i doubt it) said that shes gotta go on another diet! When i was stood next to her as well so she could hardly have looked at herself as fat. Its the closest iv ever come to wanting to hit a friend, if only to slap some sense ino her. (not that i actually would =D )

I'd also like to make it clear that im 18 (...well 19 now i guess ^_^) even though i sound like a whingey mother, and im size14-16. No i dont like my weight. I hate it in fact but saying that i dont hold a grudge against all skinny/slim/thin people in the world (I just hate the ones that thing they'r better than me). The point of this rant was just to vent a bit lol

Iv ditched myspace in favour of livejournal lol. Originally i only intended to get this account so i could post on/join communities but iv decided that it'd be a great place to start posting fanfic to. Not that i have any thats anywhere near ready at the mo but i should start getting less coursework soon T_T. I'll start posting in kakairu because they are by far my biggest love :D :D Well i'd best get writing then :P 


oh and have decided i dont like these smilies >_<